lost

Assalamualaikum

for countless time i stepped into the classroom and is unable to digest whatever the lecturer is saying. i do understand but i just couldn't digest. like making connections and stuff. huhu it worries me. for instance i couldn't make connection the lesson that we are having in debra's class. plus, the things that erika and julia thought last year. i know that i learned about content based learning, play-based learning, a little bit about classroom management. i missed the productive pedagogy lesson and dont even understand about it until now. i did an assignment on audio-lingual methodology last semester.

this is bad isn't it? i am just going with the flow.

today, i sat blankly in the maths class. i was frustrated because i couldn't solve the problems and in the end my brain decided to shut itself. just to avoid excessive frustration in the classroom. we learned about measurement. last week we learned about space. there were big words and concept (which i have learned in malaysia, only that it is in English now) that i couldnt understand. huhu. adding to the fact that i am unable to take photos from my own camera. my thought was raging but i kept my cool. i played along. i went with the flow. do the workshops, joted down notes. until the clock struck 1. then, yeay!

jo was talking about pedagogy.
allan luke was talking about ccts and stuff.
debra... hmm talks about... curriculum? is it? (macam tak je). oh ye about resources etc etc.
digital media was about applying media in your classroom.
teal is about the differences and how you can include esl student in the classroom.
global teacher was about being aware of the issues around you like poverty, environment, etc etc that you can teach in the classroom to create awareness among the students. what else? clb320 was about language and culture. social stuff related to language.

this is not good. sitting in the class but is unable to make connections. i am at lost. can somebody help me?