What have I been doing?

Assalamualaikum wrb,

I've left the blog for too long. Didn't realise how time actually flies. Anyway, I've been busy with a few things this year..

#1 

I am now in the progress of doing my Master Project 1. I have decided to do on Extensive Reading which I hope would benefit my students as well as giving me more understanding about the reading process.

#2

Yup, this is my Action Song team for Year 2013. They are the KSSR lot. Extremely active and they do have different characters compared to the KBSR lot. Alhamdulillah, we've got first at the zon level and will be competing at the district level this Saturday. Please pray for us. They have been practising so hard that now they have lost their voice.

#3 

In the midst of preparing the kids for the Action Song competition, we also have to prepare the document for Program Pengarah Turun Padang. So here are my mountains of works. The instruments and books are yet to be marked. I have spent my free time completing documents for the file and spent my afternoon training the kids. I have burned my midnight oil on my assignment that I don't know when to mark these books. 

#4

So that's roughly what's been happening in my life so far. I've been travelling back and forth to Kuching too to meet dearest hubby.

Do keep me in your prayers will you. Kind of need it now that I have started doing my master project.

Till then, wassalam 

2012 in a nutshell

Assalamualaikum wrb,

It's 11.17 p.m 31st December 2012. Stepping into 2013 in less than an hour. I've been thinking a lot about 2012. Let the pictures do the talking.

Allah has chosen us to be one of the visitors of Makkah and Madinah. 

 My besties. The three of us got married in the same year. Both of them in March and mine in November.

I got married to this wonderful man who is now in Lubok Antu and how I wish he is here right beside me.

Lil' fatih is growing up so fast and is now everyone's sweet heart. Your aunties and uncles heart you fatih. Hope you'll grow up becoming anak soleh.

After so many years, everyone managed to come back at the same time. So the happy moments were captured twice. First during Ramadhan. The second time on my wedding day. May all of us be the occupant of Jannah. Thank you mak and abah for raising us so well that we all become who we are today. 

Finally, yup this is him. Meet my other half. 

Thank you Allah, for blessing him into my life. 

I love you, abang.

 Hope this marriage will last till Jannah. 

I want to be your wife now and then. 

In a nutshell, 2012 has been quite a year. There were many ups and downs.

Life has been a roller coaster.

Nevertheless, I can't thank Allah enough for the blessings showered upon me this year. 

Hope that 2013 will be a better year for you and for me.

Hope we will become a better servant of Allah. 

It's time for retreat.

Let's reflects upon our amal.

2012

I stepped into 2012 not knowing what Allah has set for me this year (but who does?) 2012 has given me lots of surprises which make this year the most happening of all. I call it the most happening because too many things 'happen' this year. There is another month to go before 2013 arrives yet, I am still anticipating what's next? Are there more surprises awaited me?

Early in the year, I expected the same old hectic life that 2011 had offered me. I thought life would be as it was. Firstly, my parents had made plan, to visit the Sacred Land of Makkah to perform umrah. Thus, a big chunk of money was put aside for the BIG adventure. We went in August and alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for giving me a chance to be one of the visitor of the Your holy land. 

But, Allah gave me another surprise. As I was grieving of something, a good friend (who is now my husband) back in Lubok Antu proposed. It was a mixture of feelings. He is my best friend, how can I marry my best friend? I was like, WHAT? Are you kidding me? After I few weeks cracking my head and asking around, I put my trust in Allah and finally accepted. So, now I have BIGGER things to plan. We got engaged on 3rd June 2012, one and a half month after he proposed and now planning for the wedding.

The road to the 12th November 2012 felt long. With the preparation, school work, assignments and many more I feel like collapsing. ok i lied, my sisters help with most of the preparation: they painted, clean the house... rearrange everything while I was busy coping with life outside. I could only help during school break and long weekends. But trust me juggling all these is not easy. 

But Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for blessing him into my life. Thank you Allah for supportive family who has never failed to help me through. 

Put my story aside, 2012 has lots other good news for my  of my good friends: Gg, lin and shiken got married this year. Siti Soraya Lin, my adik back in brissy, gave birth to a prince this year. So does my akhawat: Dayah and Yao, who gave birth this year too. Another good friend, got engaged 2 days ago. My roomie back in IPBA is giving birth today. 

All in all, thank you Allah, Alhamdulillah, syukran lillah. There have been to many blessings showered this year. Another month to go, will there be more surprises?

the countdown

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh,

2 days ago marked the fifth month of our engagement 

On this date today.. the countdown continues

The wedding is only one week ahead 

Mohon doa semua, semoga dipermudahkan dan berjalan lancar

The reasons of why I am still not nervous is I need to complete two BIG tasks

1. completing a 4000words assignment by thursday
2. completing the sppbs for my lil' ones

Till then, wassalam wrb

camping

random post about school as when I re-read my stories in my first year of teaching, I realised that I have stopped sharing about my school experiences. 

so here it is (written in bm)

Antara perkara tahunan yang saya paling gemari sejak menjadi guru ialah

Perkhemahan Tahunan Sekolah

baru balik dari Gunung Ledang

Lenguh-lenguh kaki sebab mendaki 500m (je) 

Dari semalam asyik complain kaki lenguh-lenguh 

(sebenarnya baru sakit sikit tapi merengek kalah budak kecik)

tapi alhamdulillah sangat berbaloi sebab disambut oleh deruan air terjun yang dingin dan mendamaikan hati

tapi turun dengan banyak kali terpeleset dan terjatuh

Lebam2 kat kaki sebab terpeleset, terlanggar akar kayu dan 

kene himpit dengan si budak baik Haziq masa kat air terjun (sakit la kaki cikgu Haziq!)

tapi suke hati (^________^)

alhamdulillah. thank you Allah. 

(sorry, takde gambar. 'rajin' nak bawak kamera pegi air terjun)

buzzing mind

zzzz.... zzzzz... zzzz

every time my mind gets busy thinking about many things i could hear buzzes in my mind. sometimes, it processed so hard that I get a 'mind'ache. Ok, 'mind'ache is not a good thing.

But, surprisingly, one of the courses that I am taking this semester has never failed to make my mind buzz (in a good way). It will buzz with excitement of the ideas introduced by our lecturer. It'll reflect on how I carry out my classroom practices. It'll try to imagine doing some of the activities that we do in class inside my own class. 

Today, we had 4.00 pm to 10.15pm lecture with PM Khairi. I was sleepy at at the beginning of the class (maybe because I was tired). However after I had some refreshment, my mind was awake and I was ready to listen to the 5 hours lecture. Oh, it was tiring. I drove back slowly as I was too tired to think of the highlights that I might get if I drive on the fast lane. I drove with the flow not bothering to speed back home.

But, it was a great lesson. I had a good time. Thank you prof. For all the great ideas. For making me reflect of what I have been doing in the last 3 years and 9 months.

It does make me sigh. Of my inability. Of my incompetency. Of the current classroom management especially in 2 Sri 3. (Double... triple sighs)..

Zzzz...Zzzz Zzzz...  (ok bukan bunyi tido.. its buzzing sound) 

till then, wassalam wrb.

hikmah

Assalamualaikum wrb,

It has been a while since I last updated my blog. I was taking my lunch and reading through my old posts when I stumble upon these

1. Monday, April 13, 2009

“Afifah, Afifah. Dapat pergi daripada sebesar-besar bandar ke seulu-ulu tempat. Apalah yang Allah dah sediakan untuk Afifah?.”

2. http://www.perinducintailahi.blogspot.com/2009/07/hikmah-yang-hilang.html

Now, 3 years later.. I think I have found the answer to these questions. And Alhamdulillah I am grateful for the answer of the hidden hikmah that I have been looking for.

And I am thankful to Allah for this (smiling from ear to ear).

What is it? (wink wink)

Will let you know in a while (^___________^)

Kisah musim sejuk

Ditakdirkan Allah, cita-cita untuk melanjutkan pelajaran ke UK tidak kesampaian. Malah diri dicampakkan ke bumi kangaru untuk menggapai cita-cita menggenggam segulung ijazah. Ku melihat sahabat-sahabat yang bakal terbang ke bumi yang sama, tidak seorang pun yang rapat denganku baik di kelas dan di dorm. Air mata hampir menitis apabila diumumkan bahawa diri 'hanya' akan ke bumi Brisbane.

Namun, aturan Allah itu maha indah. Siapa tahu, di bumi yang kusangka tidak best itu, ketemui sahabat-sahabat yang sehingga kini rapat denganku. Siapa sangka, di bumi itu, Allah memberikan hidayah dan kefahaman yang ku bawa ke mana-mana dan menjadi penguat diri di kala diri lalai dan alpa. 

Aku berkenalan dengan beberapa istilah baru: akhawat, dakwah, tarbiyyah, ukhuwwah, ithar, muslim for life dan banyak lagi.Terlalu ironi. Di bumi yang dikatakan negara Islam kefahaman ku hanya sekadar menjadi seorang abid, di bumi yang Islam itu asing Allah memberi lebih dari itu. Bermula dengan satu soalan "Apa yang fifa fikir bila tengok laut?" diikuti dengan pelbagai siri 'ceramah', 'outing', gathering dan banyak lagi... identiti diri terukir semula. Di tika itu, begitu tinggi mujahadah mengikis karat-karat jahiliyah. 

Kemudian sekembalinya ke Brisbane, setiap petang kami berkumpul untuk mendengar tazkirah ringkas dari sahabat-sahabat. Biarlah ia ringkas, namun cukup untuk menghilangkan dahaga dan menyegarkan iman. Aktiviti mingguan bersama akhawat seperti rehlah, outing, berkumpul untuk majlis-majlis ilmu dan sebagainya. 

Namun, ianya bukanlah semata-mata kering untuk ilmu, hubungan menjadi basah. Ukhuwwah terjalin. Hubungan hati tercipta. Pelbagai ujian ukhuwwah melanda. Ujian Allah untuk membersihkan hati-hati kita. Kemudian, Allah menarik balik insan-insan yang menjadi tempat bersandar untuk kita membina kekuatan diri. Untuk mengajar bahawa sandaran hanya kepada Allah semata-mata.

Akhawatku, semua itu bermula pada perjumpaan musim sejuk 2006. Kini musim sejuk sudah menjelma kembali. Maka meningkatlah usia tarbiyyah kita. Baru enam tahun berjalan di jalan ini. Masih jauh perjalanan kita. Di dalam kesibukan dunia ini, ingatkah dikau akan semangat berkobar-kobar kita untuk menjadi insan yang lebih baik? Macam jauh kan... masihkah semangat itu berkobar dalam hatimu? 

Tidak salah untuk mengimbau memori, jika ia mengingatkan kita untuk menjadi HambaNya yang lebih baik. Terlalu banyak yang berubah. Dari seorang sudah berdua. Yang berdua sudah bertiga. Yang mengajar di seberang, sudah kembali ke semenanjung. Yang dekat tapi tidak bertemu. Yang jauh tetapi sentiasa dekat di hati. 

Doaku semoga kita tetap utuh dengan kefahaman yang terpahat di dalam hati kita. Kerana akhirnya kita akan berdiri di hadapan Allah untuk menjawab akan setiap perbuatan dan amal kita di dunia ini. Kadang-kadang teringin kembali ke masa lalu. Pada masa hati terasa lebih baik dari sekarang. Namun walau apa pun yang terjadi detik tetap berlalu. Musim terus berubah. Kita pun turut sama berubah mengikut musim dan arus kehidupan. 

Doaku lagi, semoga kefahaman ini terus menolak kita untuk terus ke hadapan. Sentiasa berkobar-kobar untuk menjadi seperti 'kita' enam tahun lalu ketika diri di ketuk dengan sebuah kefahaman yang 'berat' ini. 

Semoga akhirnya kita bertemu di jannah. Dengan wajah yang berseri-seri atas kejayaan kita menempuh ujian kehidupan. Tetapi untuk kejayaan itu, perlukan mujahadah yang tinggi di tempat persinggahan ini. Semoga kita sering ingat-mengingatkan akan kehidupan yang abadi itu nanti. 

Akhir kata, rindukan kalian fillah. Semoga kasih Allah sentiasa mengiringi setiap langkahmu.

Love is all around

Assalamualaikum wrb,

There were days that I whine for the work loads that we teachers have to complete. There are hundreds of minutes to be completed. Many times, we have to do irrelevant tasks like creating a room which will only be left untouched and dusty. Meetings too are way too long where you listen to the same thing over and over again. 

Nevertheless, one thing that I can never get tired off is my kids. Yup, my cute monsters (Afifah, 2007). I created this term back when I was doing my practicum where my classroom management was zero. I struggled for the first three years of teaching. There were times that I felt as if I'm not made for this. There were also days I felt like giving up on them. But even though I have to handle and discipline these little monsters, these little kids that I meet everyday are undeniably cute. No matter how you scold them, they are always ready to love you. (But beware, even when they love you, it doesn't mean that they will write neatly and listen to your instructions. They are kids, what do you expect from them?)

Example 1

Venue: 2 Sri 4

I'm trying to improve my kids' reading skills and currently I am focusing on phonetic skills. Each of them has a book of alphabet where they will spell the words that I say according to the sound that they hear. As I was writing on the board, a boy, Kuganeswaran who has never failed to make me yell each day and despite of the scoldings he received each day, he will always smile when I scold him.

Kuga: Teacher you love us right?

Miss Afifah : Yes... ( while facing to the board writing something)

Kuga: Teacher, you love me right?

Miss Afifah: eh?

Boy 1: Eeeee.... takkanlah teacher sayang Kuga sorang je

Miss Afifah: (Decided not to entertain Kuga anymore) Kuga, keep quiet and do your work.

Kuga: Alah teacher, I know you love me one...

Example 2

Venue: 1 Sri 2

This is a very active class. Many of the teachers complain of their hyperactiveness. It is very hard to control them They love to talk, they love to walk. When you are teaching, they always find something else in the pencil box which they find more interesting than the lesson like the erasers, scissors, ruler, etc. 

As I walked into the classroom,

Amirul Fahim : I love you teacher

Miss Afifah : I love you too (^_^)

The truth is, it is them who keeps me going each day. Yes, sometimes I do have to drag myself to class, but I do love them. Each year, I have to attend different clients but each of them is unique in their own way. Even the most active class where there are more boys compared to girls, which is extremely hard for me to handle, there will always be at least one boy or girl who will be my favourite. Surprisingly, usually the hardest to control will always be the one whom I adore the most.

Yes, I am thankful to Allah for landing me on this job. There is always something new to learn each day. Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah. 

Yes, I do whine. I do complain. Some days I walk into the class with a smile on my face but walk out feeling extremely angry. Some days I walked out of a class feeling satisfied. Sometimes I feel helpless of my incapability. But hey, these are the ups and downs in my job. They spice up my life. And they make my life interesting. 

Till then, wassalam wrb.

1 to go

Alhamdulillah one paper done!

Only one more to go!

Rabbi Yassir Wala tu'assir ya kareem

when Allah takes something away from you

Subhanallah

True indeed

Keyword nya hanya dua

Sabar dan Redha

InsyaAllah, Allah akan memberi yang lebih baik

Have faith!

Mohon doamu jua

Sudah sebulan tidak di update.

Disibukkan dengan ini sekarang

Mohon doa semua agar mendapat keputusan yang cemerlang dalam setiap subjek yang diambil. 

Ingat daku dalam doamu ya.

InsyaAllah akan bertarung selama setahun lagi.

Perjalanan masih jauh. 

mencintai dan merindui syahid

Assalamualaikum wrb,

Berjalan-jalan di laman mukabuku, beberapa kali terbaca petikan catatan Dr. Zainurrashid tentang pegalamannya di bumi Gaza yang terkini. Pengalaman beliau pada hari ini betul-betul menarik perhatianku.

Setiap orang di bumi Palestin merindui syahid. Malah mereka bercita-cita untuk syahid. Subhanallah, hanya Allah yang tahu betapa kuatnya semangat jihad mereka. Andai ditanya kepada ku mahukah aku syahid di jalan Allah? Jawapan skema yang ku ada ialah : Ya. Tetapi aku terbayang, bagaimana jika pada waktu ini senapang itu diacukan ke wajah ku? Mampukah aku berdiri mempertahankan diri dan yang penting berjuang sehingga syahid?

Aku sering menceritakan berbeza orang yang berlawan takut mati dengan orang yang berlawan mengejar syahid. Andai dibayangkan dua parajurit memegang pedang sedang bersedia untuk berlawan, seorang memang mengejar kematian, maka dia pasti dia akan takut untuk mara dan menghayunkan pedangnya. Tetapi bagi seseorang yang takutkan kematian, pasti setiap langkah adalah untuk mempertahankan diri dan langkahnya pasti sedikit ke belakang, ke belakang dan terus ke belakang. Nah, di sini kita sudah boleh mengagak, pengakhiran bagi pertembungan ini.

Aku sering terfikir, yang manakah aku dalam situasi itu.. Adakah diriku pengejar syahid yang berani mati atau aku akan mengambil langkah ke belakang sekadar mempertahankan nyawaku? Berdiri bulu romaku memikirkan situasi ini.

Orang yang imannya teguh, pasti tidak akan melangkah ke belakang. Langkahnya akan utuh, maju ke depan kerana syahid itu lebih dikejar berbanding kehidupan di dunia yang menyakitkan dan menyesakkan dada ini. Andai pengakhiran itu, pengakhiran yang baik, masyaAllah alangkah bahagianya jiwa itu. Tempat yang sudah pasti ke syurga.

Tetapi, di manakah aku nanti? Layakkah aku ke syurgaNya? Atau adakah diriku akan di'basuh' di neraka sebelum Allah membenarkan ku ke syurga? Gelapkah atau terangkah kehidupan ku di alam barzakh nanti? Adakah aku akan sentiasa diseksa atas setiap dosa yang ku lakukan atau aku mampu tersenyum riang nanti?

Terlalu banyak tanda tanya yang aku pasti tiada siapa dapat menjawabnya, kecuali apabila tiba masanya nanti. Aku sangat tertarik dengan hadis terakhir yang diberikan oleh Dr. Zainurrashid

Dari Anas bin Malik r.a, dari nabi SAW sabdanya: Tidak ada seorangpun yang

telah masuk syurga ingin kembali semula ke dunia walaupun seluruh isi bumi ini

diberikan kepadanya kecuali orang-orang yang mati syahid. Orang yang mati

syahid itu ingin kembali ke dunia lalu dia tewas (syahid) di dunia hingga sepuluh

kali, kerana dia telah menyaksikan bagaimana mulianya orang yang mati syahid

Mampukah aku memiliki iman seutuh itu dan cinta dan rindu pada Rabb dan rasulNya sekuat itu? Tepuk dada, tanyalah iman.....

Wassalam wrb...

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KEM UNTUKMU PALESTIN

Alhamdulillah a'la kulli hal

NAZIM Johor had successfully organised this camp

Initially the participant was supposed to be children aged 9-12

but in the end we had participant as young as 7 years old

well he may be young, but subhanallah his spirit is stronger than a 9 - 10 years old

Even though I was not one of the participant, i'm looking forward to 

Kem UntukMu Palestin 2013

I had so much fun joining the kids doing their outdoor activities

(i wish i could be one of them but ~too old for that)

Hope it'll be a better program better organise and better plan

InsyaAllah...

bumi kenyalang

melihat shoutout fb adik2 yang baru nak posting sungguh mengimbau memori

jelajah singkat di bumi kenyalang

rindunye!

MPU1034

This book has been accopanying me everywhere i go since the last 2 weeks

today is the day

Statistics MPU1034

@

Kolej Rahman Putra 3pm - 6 pm

huhu..

doakan ya!

Semoga Dipermudahkan menjawab soalan

Happy New Year!

Assalamualaikum wrb,

Happy New Year!

May it be a better year for everyone.

May it be a year blessed with good health, joy and success.

(Huhu.. I've been busy. Can't find the time to update ink blots)

Not forgetting, celebrating the sixth year of writing in Ink Blots.

New year.. New hopes? New resolution?

true indeed

The moment you truly realize that everything

happens by the permission of Allah,

all your worries begin to fade away..!

‎(: Blind Trust on ALLAH Can Make

Possible to Every Impossible :)

from: Women in Islam

Mudah tapi sukar

Topik kegemaran saya sejak mengenali dunia tarbiyyah ini ialah topik "HATI". Topik ini sangatlah dekat dihati. Sebabnya nak mengubah pakaian dari senteng ke labuh senang, nak labuhkan tudung pun senang tapi mendidik hati sangatlah susah. Nak membuang karat-karat jahiliyah yang bersarang dalam hati pun memerlukan usaha yang jitu. Tapi yang paling susah sekali nak maintain kesucian hati. Sebab karat-karat jahiliyah itu terlalu dalam kesannya dalam hati sehingga sukar dilepaskan.

iluBerkaitan dengan topik hati, satu ayat yang sering diulang-ulang dan sering didengari ialah iman (yang terletak di dalam hati) itu sifatnya seperti air yang mendidih. Ada masa iman itu tinggi. Ada masa iman itu turun. Malah naik turunnya iman itu adalah perkara biasa bagi seorang mukmin. Namun begitu, sepanjang masa ini belum pernah ada yang memberitahuku bagaimanakah naik turunnya iman itu? Hari ini attend kelas di masjid dengan mak. Kata ustaz "Iman itu naik ketika membuat kebaikan. Dan turun ketika membuat kejahatan/kemungkaran". Simple as that. Nampak mudah kan. Jadi kalau tak nak futur (iaitu graf iman jatuh) sentiasa melibatkan diri dalam melakukan perkara-perkara kebaikan dan jauhi keburukan/kejahatan. Senang je kan..

Betul ke? Hakikat yang kita ketahui juga, syaitan sentiasa beusaha untuk memesongkan anak Adam dari jalan kebenaran. Paling dibenci apabila kita berusaha menjadi baik dan melakukan segala suruhan Allah. Akan datanglah bisikan dari segenap arah dan penjuru

Wahai _____, jangan sembahyang!

Wahai _____ buat ape mengaji bukannya paham pun ayat Quran tu.

Wahai ______, jangan bersedekah nanti duit bulan ni tak cukup.

Ala kejap je lagi, cerita ni habis lagi 5 minit. Sabar la dulu... Semayang sat lagi...

Jom ngumpat jom...

Dan banyak lagi bisikan yang datang tanpa dapat kita tepis kerana kita tak nampak pembisik kata-kata hati itu. Tapi Allah tidak akan memberikan kita ujian tanpa memberikan kita pelindung atau penawar kepada ujian-ujian tersebut. Or in this case ialah : ujian pembersihan hati.

Kata ustaz, Nabi Muhammad saw menganjurkan agar kita sentiasa mengamalkan zikrullah. Oh satu lagi perkara: nampak sangat mudah, tapi kenapa berat nak buat? Tak caya, cuba sebut subhanallah walhamdulillah allahuakbar. Senang je kan. Tapi cuba amalkan berzikir sepanjang masa. I suggest that you mengamalkan zikir ini 70x sehari selama 3 hari (untuk experiment je nak tengok senang ke susah). Pastu naikkan kepada 5 hari. Pastu 7 hari dan seterusnya.

Berdasarkan sebuah hadis, Rasululllah tidak akan melalui sehari tanpa beristighfar. Ada sahabat pernha duduk di sebelah Rasulullah, di dengarnya Rasululllah bertasbih 100x. Saidatina Aisyah pula berkata Rasulullah beristighfar 70x sehari. Oh, baru saya faham sekarang kenapa saya salah satu mutabaah amal ialah beristighfar sebanyak 70x sehari. Kan formula nak selamat dunia akhirat ialah berpegang kepada Al-Quran dan Sunnah. Nah, inilah peluangmu.

InsyaAllah amalan wajib: Sembahyang, puasa, zakat + amalan sunat : solat sunat rawatib, qiyamullail + amalan berzikir insyaAllah graf iman kita akan sentiasa menaik. (Dan ikhlas) Petuanya ialah istiqamah.

Tapi point utama saya dalam entry ini ialah "yok kita beristighfar 70x sehari, yok!"

p/s: Siapa kata syurga itu murah harganya? Nak ke tak nak? Tepuk dada tanyalah iman

(oh... peringatan untuk diriku sendiri juga).

Akhir kata, ayuh kita strive untuk menjadi ahli syurga. Doa banyak2. insyaAllah, Allah melihat kepada usahamu.

have faith!

we asked for strength, and Allah gave us difficulties to make us strong. we asked for wisdom, and Allah gave us problems to solve. we asked for prosperity, and Allah gave us brain and brawn to work, we asked for courage, and Allah gave us danger to overcome. we asked for favors, and Allah gave us opportunities. We received nothing we wanted but.. we received everything we needed..have faith, trust in Allah